.necessity not an accessory.

I want Jesus to be a necessity in my life. I don't want Him to be an accessory in my life.

When I have a home,  I don't want the decorations in my home to say "God is in this house" when He's not.
I want a home where the Spirit of the Living God is felt through the threshold of the home.
I am realizing more and more that it is so easy to get caught up in the routine of life.
I forget that God only satisfies my heart.
I want to learn this now. I do not want to be 55 years old and wearing Jesus as an accessory.

See, I am alive when I am connected to Him. He said, "I am the vine. You are the branches. Apart from Me, you can do nothing."
Abiding in Him, gives me life. Purpose. Vision. Empowerment.

Without Him, everything I do is lifeless.

I want to be this authentic woman. I want to bring Life to the dying. I want to speak freedom over the captives.

In closing, Brooke Fraser says it the best.

Musical Talent=Bonus Points?

Does being musically talented gain bonus points with males?

I feel like I get the question, "So are you musically talented?" (with a nonchalant, hopeful voice)

I reply, "Nope. I tried the piano for years. I just feel like I wasn't chosen to be musically talented."

And the thought goes through my mind, "Did I just lose points with him?"

Yes, I know being musically talented is extremely attractive to a person. Oh I know.

I wish with all my heart I had a soft raspy singing voice that I could serenade people with. Yet I know what God gave me, and it was the exact opposite.

 But I want to tell that person,

"Listen, I may not know how to sing or pick up that guitar in the corner and start strumming some Norah Jones song. But I can do many other things such as paint, have heart felt conversations, or even know what shirt goes with which pants. I also am very funny. I can find humor in the darkest situation. I like to watch The Office and watch sports on a lazy Sunday afternoon. Even though I am not musically talented, I love to read works such as AW Tozer and CS Lewis. So before you ride off my attributes, listen to what I can offer first. If you are really looking for that musically talented person, I am willing to lip sing. I will also not wash my hair for a few days so it seems a little greasy grungy. Then I will put some skinny jeans on with a cute knit hat and trendy flats. But please before you take points off the score board, see who I am really am first."

Yet, I don't think I will ever say that out loud.

So if being musically talented earns bonus points, I will not score those. But I have my witty humor to win him over. (i hope.)

*this post is NOT geared to some specific male out in the world.

However, if I was musically talented, I would want to sing like her:

Shout Out to My Girlzzzzzzzz

okay so I laughed the hardest while watching this video.

This video is dedicated to all my girlfriends who can hilariously relate to this video.

Embarrassing to admit that I can.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gspaoaecNAg

Top Ten Things: #9 set.

So #9 on my top ten list has been researched and I think set.

Fellow Blog Readers:

SAVE THE DATE

May 28-29

Ottawa, CANADA Marathon

http://www.ncm.ca/index.php/en/sunday

I am going to fly up there and visit one of my dearest friends Britney Moore and her hubby. Also my uncle and family live in Ottawa. I have been wanting to make a visit up there, but now there is definitely a good goal to go up there. I will be done with school, i think.

And so I am going to start training!

Any posters, flowers or sweet encouraging words will be greatly appreciated.

For all those visual learners, I will start making videos of this training process. Be prepared for some good matching running clothes and cute headbands.


love,
jocelyn elizabeth

Top Ten Things

I am young. On this college campus, I am one of the oldest, but in the real world I am a youngster.

So these are the top ten things I want to do while young and in my 20's:

1. Travel. Anywhere. I just want to travel.
2. Live in the city. New York. LA. Nashville.
3. Write a book. About the value of womanhood.
4. Start my own company. Something that I am passionate about doing.
5. Read 12 biographies in a year. 12 leaders that sparked change in the world.
6. Take a hip hop dance class. No joke. So you think you can dance has inspired me.
7. Pay off my student loans. Quickly.......
8. Have my own apartment and decorate it with chic style.
9. Run a marathon.
10. Get plugged into a church that shares my same heartbeat for an organic Christian faith, that is real, raw, and life changing.

Now, please post any other ideas that you think I should accomplish while being young and in my 20's. (besides finding a husband and creating offspring).

Love,
jocelyn elizabeth

Busy, Busy, Life

I need to update my blog MORE!!! I can't have a constant reader base, when I don't have anything for my readers to read.


I just got back from fall break. It was by far amazing. I went to Virginia Beach to visit some lovely friends from Teen Mania.

Thank you Teen Mania for creating an environment to make strong godly friends for a lifetime.

However, I do want to talk about something that I discovered while talking to one of my best friends who got married this past summer.
We were talking about life and how everything just wasn't turning out as we always pictured it to be. Then, she says, "I always thought when I found the perfect man for me my life was going to awesome. I would be happy and not insecure. And I realized I actually need God more now than before I was married. My problems didn't go away. Of course, my husband does make me the happiest, but he doesn't satisfy me like God does."

I think I realized then that I had been looking to find happiness in marriage. I really do want to get married, but I realized that it will never satisfy me like Jesus will.

Over the past few days, I keep hearing the same thing, "If you drink from the well, you will never go thirsty again."



On a lighter note, my womb cried out for children the other day. haha. I was nannying for a family and they have a two year old girl and four year old boy. In the middle of the night, there was this really bad storm, lightning and all. At 2:30 am, in the doorway of the room I was sleeping in, are two little figures holding hands and came to crawl in bed with me. We all piled in on the bed, and fell asleep. I woke up at one point on the edge of the bed, and the two little bodies spread out.


I can definitely wait to have children, but will totally love every minute of it when it happens!

love,
jocelyn elizabeth

.the smell of the sea.

It has been a year since I have left Teen Mania. 

So many things have happened since leaving! 

1. I learned how to live in the real world, kind of. I got a job and started paying for my own things. 
2. I moved away to college, ORU to be exact. I have always had the dream of going to ORU. I just put it aside for a season.
3. And I started redreaming of the things to do in life when you are in your early 20's. 

So when I left TM, I wrote this little story about this new season in my life. I never showed anyone, except one person. (so if you are a reader of this blog, you are some of the few).

Enjoy.

8/22/2009

it was officially a week on tuesday that i left the harbor.
oh the harbor. its a beautiful place where people come and go.
they load up their ships with all the supplies and food they need for the giant sea.

i sat at the harbor for three years, loading up my ship.
i cried when my fellow friends went out to sea.jealous of their adventures.
and then the day came. i set sail and said goodbye.
i set sail for the sea.

i have heard many stories about the sea.
some people say it is a rough storm out there.
alot have fallen defeat to the storms and lost all food and cargo.
some have saved the drowning and become fishers of men.
some have lost their direction and begun to sail the course of defeat.

i had no idea what it would like for me.
i had dreamt of the sea and the smell of the clean air.
yes freedom, some call it.
some say, finally getting out of the harbor is the most rehabilitating thing someone can feel.

And here I am on my own.
It is something that I did not expect to see.

Yes, it something very different that I have seen.
It Is Jesus Christ leading me...
He is steering my course. And I keep finding ministry along the way.
A four year old boy asking to hear stories from the Bible.
An old friend from high school waiting for me to say the blessing.
A department store worker faithfully working while being unnoticed.
A church moving at the beat of God’s heart.

It is different out here on the sea.
But it is a beautiful thing because I see the horizon.
And He sits on the horizon, on His throne.
Calling all men to come and be fisher’s of men.

ps. roommate date went very well. here are some pictures of the memories...