Make Things Happen

I am the type of woman who just wants to make things happen.
Yes. that person.
I am very good at getting things done.
Someone says it can't be done. Well I will go look for a second opinion.

I thrive on my independence. I actually take great pride in being independent.I go places, do things, and feel the rush of excitement from being so "grown-up."


However, one of the most refining things in my life is trusting God in letting Him make things happen.
I want to know everything, plan everything, and have control over everything.
My heart feels the inner war of fighting against my initial instinct.
"Be independent. Don't rely on anything or especially anyone. You will find greater satisfaction in your own accomplishments."


Yet if I try to follow this tendency, I fail.
The plan only works when He has control.



It is so refining to be dependent.
Especially on Him.

To fully trust.
To fully rely on.
To fully let go.


It just feels so unnatural to not know the next step or even the full plan.

I want to see the blueprints. It makes me feel safer. I feel more in control.

And He continually hides the blueprints so that all the answers may be sought through Him. He wants me seeking and asking for the next step. He wants full reliance on Him.

The end result brings intimacy, authenticity, and relationship with Him.

"Abide in Me, and I in you. For apart from Me, you can do nothing."
John 15


love,
jocelyn elizabeth